She's writing it here- because she doesn't wish to write elsewhere. Kev says that if I don't like my options I should find/make one I like.
-one is to sit here and hope things turn out the way I want- which is only good if they do. and until then terrible.
-the other is to forget- which probably means losing a good friend a the process. And the friend seems to do a bit of abjecting without me saying anything. They talk to me first most of the time. I don't object.
my third... is- I'm not sure I can't change anyone's minds and I don't know what else to do. I could always tell them things. They just confuse me. I guess it's payback?

-Mil

She loves you, whoever you are. Maybe, maybe she just loves one of you.... >_>